I Mostly Feel Suicidal in the Morning
when the sun is shining its harshest eye through
blinds that never completely close. Dark thoughts
flare in response to such unwelcome disruption
of elusive sleep. Blinking in attempt to erase
spots that erupt in rapid response to violated
vision, I imagine overly aggressive rays as gold-
plated sword. Ceremoniously, I desire to thrust
myself against such precisely honed blades.
I Am Burning
with desire to touch something
I cannot imagine, something beyond
the extensive stretching of my own
imagination. I need to believe there is
existence outside of my pyre, an innocent
world unscarred by suffocating
ink and ash.
The Ritual of Forgetting
I pushed rewind and one
by one the walls of my mind were
vacated. I had become
a waiting room for shifting
silence. I stripped off my skin,
watched as night trickled down
insanity’s drain. The loss
burned with its own life,
and for a few moments so did I.
Finally, exhaustion settled in, and I
embraced the monotonous lack
like a child, no longer
afraid of the dark.
A.J. Huffman has published thirteen full-length poetry collections, fourteen solo poetry chapbooks and one joint poetry chapbook through various small presses. Her most recent releases, Degeneration (Pink Girl Ink), A Bizarre Burning of Bees (Transcendent Zero Press), and Familiar Illusions (Flutter Press) are now available from their respective publishers. She is a five-time Pushcart Prize nominee, a two-time Best of Net nominee, and has published over 2500 poems in various national and international journals, including Labletter, The James Dickey Review, The Bookends Review, Bone Orchard, Corvus Review, EgoPHobia, and Kritya. She is also the founding editor of Kind of a Hurricane Press. http://www.kindofahurricanepress.com.
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